Archives for November 2013

We are Truly Blessed.

The title of this post says it all. We have each other, and though there are times we want to strangle each other, we never give up on each other. We are the perfect mix of goofiness/seriousness, brains/airheaded-ness, and dreamy/reality checks. Where one lacks, the other picks up. i believe we compliment each other well.

We also have a wonderful house. It’s older, and needs much updating, but it’s spacious, with a big back yard, and it’s ours. There are room for our two children and two giant dogs to run and play without feeling crowded. It also has plenty of room for our expanding family by two! It may not be perfect for many, or perfect at all, but it’s perfect for us.

We have 2 good condition, working vehicles. One newly bought to hold the 6 of us. We also have a third vehicle for those situations no one wants to be in or pay for. Ya know… if one of the main vehicles has the transmission blow, starter goes out, or any of the million things that can go wrong with a vehicle that requires a more-than-one-day shop visit.

Jason and I both have jobs that pay all our bills with a small tad left over. We don’t have much to work with afterwards, but we have jobs that pay the bills and give our family a little money to play with. We’re expanding our savings little by little, and sometimes we don’t quite make it paycheck to paycheck, but I am thankful for what our income has provided thus far and what is yet to come.

But most importantly, I am blessed for two very healthy children. Broden and Kensli are the light in our eyes and we are truly blessed for what we have been given. I feel honored to be their mom/step mom and wouldn’t want it any other way.

Although we were not expecting to have two more children added to our family, we know that they are ours for a reason. It’s hard to complain and see negativity about such a true gift when I know others in this world are just praying for one child to be brought into their lives.

I read a woman’s blog about her and her husband’s journey with infertility and miscarriages. It is truly heartbreaking. And it made me so thankful for everything we do have and for what is yet to come. She stands by her faith even in the most heart-wrenching times. Something I don’t know if I could do. If you know me at all, you know, I’m not the most religious person out there. I go to church for the holidays and I believe in God, but sometimes, things happen that make me wonder if he really is there. I don’t dog those that are 110% believers, or those that are 110% non-believers. I believe everyone has a right to their own opinion, but after reading some stories… it’s just hard to believe. This is one of those stories.

The story of Holly and Darren Benson had me in tears as I read their story. And I pray for them. And not only them, but any family who has to deal with infertility, miscarriages, or child loss.  My heart breaks. And I can’t imagine…. I just can’t. And what hits even harder, is that us, and by us, I mean all those who are not affected by it, always have the wrong things to say. And not on purpose, but because we have never gone through this pain to know what to say. The last thing anyone of us wants to do is make it more painful, but I am truly sorry if I ever said anything ever in the past, that did not ‘help’. It even has me second guessing asking couples when they are going to start having children. Maybe they have already tried for a year? It really isn’t anyone’s business when a couple decides to expand their family. And it makes it worse, if they so desperately want to expand, and have been trying for years, and everyone continues to ask them over and over, as if they are ‘failing’ because they haven’t done the next step after marriage. It’s not an easy topic to discuss. For anyone. So please… before you find it your place to know a married couples personal business, think twice. Holly has actually put together a guide to help us all with infertility couples, to help understand. Please take a moment to read it.

I also follow Nick and Beth and they have a similar story, but with a positive outcome. They have also spoken about their story on their blog, and have a tab dedicated to it, and even with their beautiful twins, it’s still hard to imagine the difficult journey they have gone through. Please, go to either blog and read their stories. I feel it’s necessary for anyone and all to read. To get an insight of the pain. If anything, to help all of us stop taking advantage of what we do have.

I always feel uneasy when it’s talked about how ‘easy’ Jason and I conceive. I don’t know who around me has suffered. Even my own family members may have a secret they are not ready to share. And the last thing I want to do is discuss my fertility. Yes, we are blessed. I know that, as does he. And I couldn’t be happier with where we are today. But I know there are suffering families out there. Families that dream of being in the delivery room at 40 weeks, pushing out their future of diapers, spit up, diarrhea, Disney movies, and cute onesies. Families that dream that they’ll be able to help their children with homework or take them to football, dance, and/or band practice. Families that just want nothing more than to kiss a child good night and wake up to a smiling face the next morning. I pray for all of you. I pray your prayers are answered.

Kensli’s Room Makeover Peep Show!

We moved into our house in March of 2012 and almost nothing has been done to it but some paint. And the paint is kind of a half ass job. Anywhere you look… there maybe painters tape still on the wall, or an accidental swish of paint on the ceiling that we never fixed. But never mind that. We’ll eventually get into fixing all our little disasters we trailed all over the house.

But Kensli’s room was never decorated, painted, put together nice, nothing. She was just thrown in there with not much thought. I didn’t even unpack all her boxes. And by all her boxes, I mean, literally,  most of them. How sad huh? I unpacked her clothes, her fitted sheets to her bed, and shoes. Her toys went down to the toy room. Most of them anyway. Her toys she most loves stays up in her room.

But that was it. White and boring walls. Random crap I had to pull out of an unpacked box stayed on the floor once I didn’t need it anymore. Her clothes didn’t even make it to her hamper…. And to no fault to my 3 year old. It was all out of laziness on my end.

For crying out loud, she’s still in a crib! Yes. You read that correctly. A crib. But she never learned to climb out. She just talks to her self while patiently  waiting for mom or dad to come get her out of jail. We put a pull up on her, and she’s good to go for the night!

I have been letting her sleep on the couch during nap times to get a feel for how she’ll do in in the near future with a big kid bed. And for the most part, not too bad. I just like the toddler jail. For selfish reasons only. I like love not waking up at 6 am to a wide eyed little girl looking me straight in the eyes next to me when I roll over. The crib forces her to go back to sleep until a more appropriate time. She can’t get out and run when she’s not ready to go to bed… which has been quite frequently. And she can’t get up and play with toys at midnight. It’s glorious. And to be honest… I’m still not sure if I’m ready for this step.

But for her third birthday… we decided to make the grown up decision that she will have a new and improved room! It might have been a tad late… but she does have an actual room she can be excited about. So of course, it wasn’t done for her third birthday, but it was certainly started. And quite frankly… I’m pretty impressed with it so far! Still have a ways to go, but it’s started and she is excited every time she steps in the room!

Let me show you the progress thus far! Just a small little peep! I’ll show more detailed before and afters later when the room is closer to being completed! I have a grand plan for her room that I will show you when it’s all completed.  :)

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Isn’t it glorious? I wanted gray and pink, but the pink I wanted was just too much for an entire wall. So this works. But that’s all for now! I don’t want to spoil the surprise! :)

Our Family News!

Well.. I s’pose it’s time I can share with you why I had to put my new blog on hold. I promise, it’s a good reason!  

14 Weeks!

14 Weeks!

 

We are expanding our family….

But that’s not all the news folks… Actually, the ‘expanding the family’ is kind of the boring part. We already have Broden and Kensli… Everyone knew it was coming eventually.

I mean… yes, it’s exciting… but not as exciting as…

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Now… how is that for news?

We were blown away… But we were so confused. Twins do not run in our family nor was I on any medication to help me get pregnant.

But none of that matters when one is pregnant with identical twins! Did you know only fraternal twins are genetic??  Basically what happened in my case, the egg split in two when the sperm penetrated the egg. Causing two of the same organism. Hence the identical part.

I blame Jason. I said that he was soooo powerful it split was my egg in two. He doesn’t really buy it… What? You don’t either?

Hmmm. Odd. I thought it sounded very believable.

17 Weeks

17 Weeks

Here I am today at 17 weeks. I feel so big already… and I feel I’m not that far along to be this big. But it is my second pregnancy… and it is with twins.

However, I found this picture.. and it scares the living daylights out of me!

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I could not find the original owner. If you know, please fill me in so I can give credit where credit is due.

Look at her. 37 Weeks. And she looks like a torpedo! That cannot be comfortable! All I can say is… Lord help me not fall over when I stand up or walk.

On another note, Jason and I are feeling so blessed and all the planning and hustle and bustle has started. Now that the huge shock has worn off, we couldn’t be more thrilled!